blog envy

tonight my boys are off playing basketball with their dad and i sit here in my husbands pj pants and t-shirt feeling sorry for myself. what is it about being a women that makes us feel inferior? i have just spent the last hour and a half on this darn computer looking up loads of blogs and websites with bodies i do not have, crafts i do not take the time to make and ideas that i didn't think of, but wish i did. why do i waste time doing such stuff? why do some nights i feel inspired and some nights i feel so sad? january is supposed to be a time for new and renewel and tonight i am failing. sleep will help, i am sure, it always does. tomorrow i will start fresh!